February 2010
28 posts
at this particular moment.. my x-acto knife and ruler can suck it.
i’m over this. hah.
January 2010
48 posts
tonight i cried at work. because i miss my mom.. so much.
i feel sick. and like poo. ugh. :/ but i must say.. i havent felt this free in a long time. and i’m excited for the things ahead in my life. i’m done with my past.
currently.. i am the rule.
but one of these days.. i’ll be somebodies exception.
well hello heartbreak.. it hasnt been too long since i saw you before. but dont worry.. your stay is almost over. and you wont be back for quite some time.
“May you never steal, lie, or cheat, but if you must steal, then steal away my...”
– i wish i could find somebody worth saying this to.
if you think you’ve lost me.. well maybe i think i’ve lost me too.
..i’m almost done.. just almost.
she's needy
since when did needing your undivided attention 100% of the time be desirable? i thought being independent was what was desirable in this world today. not having to worry about her being up your ass every single day for the rest of your life i would think would be a pretty good feeling. maybe its because i am independent and i dont need anybody else but myself to be happy. while being with you...
when will i be the exception? instead of the rule.
i’m just talkin to allllll kinds of different people tonight. and sketching. and getting excited for springy break. :D
to be honest..
i just wanna go home.
i think about you all the time. but i dont know if this is all ok.
day by day is how i’m trying to live my life.. but fantasizing about the future is something that’s nice too.
innocence by avril lavigne.
i don’t think anyone else can understand this feeling.
“damn.. did you see how polka dotted that was..”
– me
it’s an infatuation.. not love.
oh the things we WOULD do for love.
“maybe my body is trying to tell me i wanna be a man”
– fushia skinner
you love me
you love her
but in a months time could that really equal what we had for almost 3 1/2 years.
this is my least favorite part of the day..
i just lay in bed and lose hours of sleep thinking about you and what we should be.
even though in my heart i know it will never happen.
today while i was at the mall i saw a shirt that said.. “4 out of 5 guys want me”
i thought it was cute.
but then i also thought about it.. you’re that 1. :[
i think i’m becoming more depressed now than i have the entire time. no good.
why in life.. is happiness usually in somebody else’s hands? this whole situation is probably the worst thing i’ve ever been involved in. :/
i miss you
and i shouldn’t. why can’t you just tell her how you feel? is it because you’re lying? i sure hope not.
i love you.
Fushia: who are you sending these to? are they even going to care?
Me: they don't! that's the beauty of it!
i was never lying when i said i’d love you...
cause if you shoot a bullet.. someone dies.
when you drop a bomb.. many die.
you hit a woman.. love dies.
but…
if you say the f-word.. nothing actually happens.
if 2 people love each other.. why aren’t they together?
to say that i’m freaking out.. would be an under statement. i have no idea why i’m so nervous. i dont want to be with you any more. buh.
if he did it to me for you..
what makes you think he wont do it to you for someone else.
“it’s a terrible thing, to know what you want, and to know you can’t have it at...”
– (via rhinoceross)
why is it..
that in movies.. they never show what happens to the other girl.. just that the guy always gets what he wants.. no matter how many times he hurts each person along the way.
i like being happy and i like sleeping.
both of which have been rare lately.
i HATE liars. nothing makes me mad faster than lying to my face! especially when it was done for probably AT LEAST a year. fess up, be a friggin adult.
never leave the one you love for the one you like, because the one you like will leave you for the one they love.
is this true? if it is.. life is gonna get a wholeee lot more complicated. but i’m ready for whatever this crazy life has to throw at me. i’ve got the best friends in the world and there’s nothing stopping us.